the terms of thinking about and emotional perspectives of witnessing my death
Death is differently treated by all, whether one is looking at their death or at the demise of their loved ones. Some people are able to face up to reality, while others are more likely to disregard reality and escape the pain of death. In this paper, I will reflect on the terms of thinking about and emotional perspectives of witnessing my death.
Thoughts and Emotions
As I was reading the scenario, the questions I had been thinking about was whether I should try to open a hot door handle. I know from my safety training that this is not a safety measure and that I need to take precautions. I was afraid that if I did not open the door, I wound suffocate in there. Besides, why did I not have my mobile phone on my desk at my bedside and try to ask for assistance? Would I ever neglect my safety instruction because I am so frightened? I hope I do not have to find out that, frankly. The rest of my family was the other thought that was running through my head? I wondered if they were safe. I have never been in an actual fire to know if thoughts are modified to the point of having a glimpse of a tunnel.
The emotions I felt when I read the scenario were range. I was angry at myself because I did not use my safety training. I also did not want to think about what was about to happen. I was so much worried about my family and how they were going to handle the situation if I left them. I felt sad that I could not give my family farewell and let them know that I love them.
Handling the Final Moments
I had to sit down and think about this issue and how I should manage the final moments. I thought that I should keep fighting for my life until my choices were all exhausted. I would smash the window, use all that I need to close the door again and stop smoke coming into the house. I cannot just close my eyes and wait until the end. To stop my fight, I would have to get knocked in the smoke. However, when pulled down, I undoubtedly begin to think about my friends and family that I left behind. I am positive that memories of good times I had with friends and family before will float through my mind. There could be thoughts about stuff I wish I could do or alter. I would be worried more about my family. I cannot be sure whether they will ever accept that I am gone forever. How I will cope with these last minutes is impossible to tell.
Life Led
The life I have lived before this occurrence was not perfect, but I have come a long way. Most part of my life is fulfilled. I felt a bit contented with the life I lived. I was stunned and just thrown to the real world when I lost my father at the age of 18, and still a little bit naive. He trained me how to accept and cope with life, though I fell back on and pressed for his protection. I know I have worked in a way that makes him happy now. I am glad I have taught and proved to my daughter that dreams never get too late. I have worked hard for everything I have earned. I am happy that my friend, too, can prove that hard work pays off.
I felled blessed to have my small family. My husband and daughter were all my life. I have worked hard to give them what they want and need. Though we have not always been happy with my husband, I feel that in our relationship, I have benefited from our bumps and taken us closer together. We got to communicate more and focus on issues until we built up too much. Neither was I the best mom. I know I have done my best to teach my daughter right and show her that you need to work hard to succeed
. Looking back, I have made some decisions for which I am not happy about. However, I believe that because of these errors, I benefited from these decisions and became a better person. I believe I was strengthened and empowered as I learned to support myself and to be accountable for my actions.
Family Reaction
I think my family will be shocked by the news of my departure in such a horrible scene. The first emotion that most people experience after losing someone is getting scares and accepting that the person they loved is really gone. I guess they will be sorry that I have left. My husband is likely to worry because I was the breadwinner. He will be torn in figuring out on managing the family bills on his own.
I think my daughter is going to be a cross between being depressed and being a little soothed because she can do what she wants now. I think she will sound like a girl who thinks I exaggerate to shield her. I always believe that the rest of my family will generously offer support to my husband and daughter to accept reality and cope without me.
Conclusion
It is a little difficult to think about how you will treat your final moments and how you lived your life before your death and how your family will feel in case of death. Individuals cope differently with the cycle of death and sorrow. Some people will find this task simple and others difficult. Some people may think about their lives and make adjustments, and others may believe their lives are perfect as they are. Dealing with death is a challenging process, and this challenge helped me to bring things into perspective in my life.